ysp 3rd sem

the 9th of november 2009, the last day of final, also the last day of my 3rd semester...
there gone my 1st semester of my second year...
a semester all mixed up with ups and downs, a semester filled with laughter and joy...of course not to miss, it was again a semester with endless tests, exams...with reports and assignments to rush..
yet, compared to the last 2 semesters, i love my 3rd semester..
it seems like everything has just started. it seems like that it is only the begining..
juniors pouring in...( that indicating that i'm old dy T.T), introduction to new subjects, getting to know great great friends, mixing around with different people..
i'm not going to crap on how it feel like to study for tests.. as, the most sickening time is the days and hours before sitting for papers...
i know that it is only the begining.. there is still a long long way to go, a long long way to explore...

first paper on the 29th..and that meaning that i only have 1 more day before entering the exam hall..
all the best^^

move or stop?

sometimes, it takes to me so deeply that i do not know what on earth is in my mind..
it goes to a standard that the word eternity is slowly being erased from my dictionary..
along the way, we gain and we lost..
each step forward, we might be gaining something and also losing something as well..
i agree with the saying that this is life..moving on the way, encountering different things in differents phases, learning and growing in each phases...
yet, sometimes, when it's time to let go and move on to the next phase, that feeling is yet so intense....

crapping at 5th floor of the faculty at this hour..

it was a long time since my last post...
tests tests tests, that's life these days.. yet, happy to say that test 2 has ended.. BUT, final is so so so on the way.. omg, it's another torturing weeks on studying and examing...
last few weeks, weeks before i went back for the raya break, i saw the 1st shoothing stars i've ever seen.. it was so nice.. but, sad to say, i didn't manage to make any wish.. anyway, hoping for a second chance..
last saturday, was our mid autumn festival.. was it last saturday? i suppose.. had somehow lost track of time.. yet our mid autumn festival had somehhow turned out to be some sort of jamuan raya.. hmm, not sure what event was that, but for sure it was an eating event..it had been ages i played with tanglung.. my last memory recall was the time when i was in primary 3 or 4..
anyway, before i start reading for finals, i sure going to enjoy myself first..my mind is so full of places to play..
ok.. emough of those stupid craping.. heading bacck to college before i got myself freak off here..

random....

years have passed, things have changed..
many things come and go...
that is what time brings... it travels us..

(-_+)

life is too short to lose..a minute lost is a minute gone.. there are so many things that life can give, but of all those so many things, how many of those that we really did grab hold to??
oppprtunities most of the time are there just right beside us, it all depends on whether did we notice them and grab full hold of them.. sometimes, they come in as clues. sometimes, they appear so obviously. sometimes, they just whisper into us, giving us hints and many more... perhaps, of all those sometimes, if we really pay more attention and did try to be more attentive, to be more observant, we might not be moving further and further, and perhaps, might not at the end, gone so far apart from the chances that once stand side by side with us..
i always do believe that every happenings, every decisions, every steps taken might somehow act as some sort of chain reactions... and also believing that every little matters might be carrying hints to the next..
what on earth am i crapping on??? don't mind my insanity..
one week raya break is ahead.. a week holiday, a week off tests.. yeappy yeappyy...
coming to that, glancing through the calender, found out that time really passes so fast that it wait for no ones..there's another say like four weeks to go before final, before leaving this semester and heading for the next...
i love this semester so so so so much, yet knowing that it is somehow coming to an end, really makes me feel so so so reluctant, reluctant to say bye bye to this sem...life moves on as i said.. i'll cherish every second left for this semester...

T.T

When everything comes to silence, i feel like hiding myself and let all my tears out again...i screwed my haemato test today.....down i am, blue i am....
anyway, there's still 3 more papers next week before flying back again..
trying to talk myself not to think more on that screwed paper and concentrate on the 3 coming papers next week..

pre test 2 nagging...

i've found myself lost.
i've found myself blurred.
from A to Z, from 1 to 10,
alphabets to alphabets, numbers to numbers..
i've found myself all confused up..
i wish for a greater capacity,
i wish for a longer attention span,
i wish for more alive functioning brain cells,
i wish for more time,
i wish.. i wish..
White blood cells, my dearest white blood cells,
please be more gentle to me,
please give me that chance to understand you,
please give me that chance to get what you mean,
please give me that chance to love you more.
chromosomes, chromosomes,
please don't go your own way,
let me know you, stay with me please.
IT, IT, IT,
pop up n tell me more bout you...


back to study...

crapzzz..

life is unpredictable...
it's coming to twelve, meaning that another day will be gone soon... and ahead is a brand new day... a brand new start...
sometimes, i had been thinking, did i ever make full use of my everydays?
sometimes, i had been wondering- a brand new day indicating a brand new start?
waking up in the morning, really for the new day ahead..forgetting the past and moving on...as if a brand new self walking towards that new 24 hours...
and now i'm telling myself to forget yesterdays and work for tomorrows...
overdozed myself with caffeine.. hitting my limit.. which i wonnder how far will i go?
test 2 is ahead.. presentations are coming.... final is on the way...
frankly, im quite scared of the upcoming test 2.. cos im so so so not prepared......